Finally back from the Singapore trip! I enjoyed myself and so did mom.
 
Day 1

- Took us 5 hours to reach Singapore by coach. Tiring but was worth the long ride. Visited grandpa at the hospital. He was surprised with our sudden visit, especially mom bringing me along. He couldn't stand up or move his knees very much, but I can tell that he is trying his best.

 

- As mentioned previously, met up with my old friend, Dira. How did we know each other? We met in Brunei and we sort of grew up together. She's 20 this year but her young features made her look more of a person at my age. Her sister, Fauziah, or better known as Ozzy, has transformed from the mischievously fun-loving one into a pretty much anti-social computer freak. All she does was staying herself in the room, not showered, still in pyjamas; chit-chattering on MSN, watching Keroro Gunso on Youtube and reading online fiction. I don't know what Singapore kids has done to her. Ozzy hardly ever spoke to me, while back then she and I always used to play together. Now, every time mom and I try speaking to her, she wouldn’t respond much except for some “mm” “ya” “oh”, nodding and shaking her head as signs of a yes or no.

- I haven't been to Dira's newer place so it was my first time there at Bukit Timah. We were greeted by her lovely fat cat named, Bobo. He was just sitting in front of the door, waiting for someone to come home. How adorable! Dira's room is the ever so filled with manga books, Japanese magazines, fashion and art supplies. Practically everything in there is Japanese. I like! And she never stopped her great interest in yaoi mangas.

Bobo the fierce-looking cat but super tame and lovable!

- She let me use her laptop and since there's wireless in the house, why not? I decided to webcam with Jinn dearest since she was online.

Day 2

*Mos burger is really good <3!


Wei Yan, this is the 'rotten rotten tofu + cheese cake' from Shokudo. It's super duper yummy! Lovin' the texture.

- Mom suggests that Dira and I spend the day together while mom goes to the hospital to visit grandfather again. Dira got us tickets to Cyborg She at Cineleisure, Orchard Road. Before that, she took me to Takashimaya so that I could browse through Kinokuniya. I was satisfied because I managed to find some Japanese piano books (with Dira around, she can be of great help in reading Japanese, so it's easier for my search) and also I decided to get The Notebook novel by Nicholas Sparks.

- Ayane mama was craving for some JE goodness and since Singapore has this idol store, Dira took me there. Sadly, the place is under renovation, so I'm sorry mama.

- It was raining. While waiting for the rain to stop, I walked into a few interesting stores. Got myself Konata's figma and a cute tote from MaaMeeMoo.

- Light drizzles. Took a bus to Bugis, Dira took me to Sunshine Plaza since all the anime goods are there. Unfortunately I did not find anything that caught my eyes. We proceeded to Bugis Junction where we met up with my mom for dinner.

- Before bed, I read a few chapters of The Notebook. Interesting as it seems.

Day 3

- The morning was still early and Dira was already up. She wanted to walk over to McD to get some breakfast home, so I accompanied her there. Crossing over the busy roads of Singapore is no harm at all. Everything is very systematic here.

- Dira had to go to some place to rent her graduation gown. Mom and I followed her there by taxi. I realised that the environment in Singapore is a lot different compared to Malaysia. Cleaner and fresher air perhaps. Also, it's not hot there, just slightly humid at times.

I also realised it was merdeka in Malaysia though I did not care less about that 'special' occasion.

- Then, we went to Art Friend to grab all the art supplies I could find. From charcoals to pens, pastels, manga paper, brushes, etc. I loved that store, I wish I could get everything from there!

Got one of these for figure drawing referrence!




Copic markers, more markers, more pens, more and more!

- Got more music books too, at a cheap price. Happy!

- Mom wanted to go Bugis Junction again. To buy some watches. They looked pretty, mom couldn't resist on getting them. I shook my head when she bought 4 of it.

- Off to see grandfather again. He's doing much better this time. Being able to lift his leg and even bend his knees up and down. I'm really happy for him.

- My grand aunt and grand uncle from China came down to Singapore today. It was my first time meeting them. They're full of energy even at the age of 80, healthy and strong. My grand uncle was a trainer before, he even showed off his abs to us under his saggy skin. I've never seen such lively elderly people before! They were speaking in Mandarin of course, I could only understand 30% of whatever they were saying.

Day 4

- I made a few researches online on some anime figurine stores in Singapore before we got out of the building. Finally I found a place, Leisure Park Kallang. Wherever that is, it is said that it's a pretty isolated place in Singapore. I didn't care, I urged to go there immediately after enquiring to Dira’s art college, Lasalle College of the Arts.

Mommy and I! Zomg, same eyes?

- Upon reaching Lasalle; mom and I were astounded by the architecture of the beautiful glass building. We haven’t seen such futuristic designs for an educational place. This is very conducive for students like me J They presented themselves so well. Off to the office, we talked to the person in charge of their school’s courses and what not. I haven’t any questions to ask because I really had no idea what to do in an art school yet. Majoring in animation, game designing, fashion, illustration or perhaps even sculpturing for something different? I wouldn’t know until I take up foundation.

This is what the building looks like from the outside. Modern, no?


I felt like as though I'm a student from that college *cough*


Dira and I <3


Seems like a nice place  for inspiration *chuckles*

- Dira toured us around. They used lifts instead of stair cases or escalators. The whole building was covered in glass windows, making it see-through for people to observe the activities going on. There was even a part covered in green ‘grass’, whereby students lay around to relax or even gather with friends to touch up on their projects.

- Next we went to NAFA (Nanyang Academy of Fine Arts), which is located a few streets away only, just a walking distance. Walking in Singapore is like the main transportation here. We weren’t too impressed with the way the guy talked to us about the courses they have. In fact, he sounded sleepy and uninterested. Lasalle’s guy was up to standard, he’d speak whenever possible to fulfill his important duty to his guests.

- Raining again, it made everything a little messy. We took an MRT to Kallang, second time riding it. Clean clean clean!

- La Tendo shop was there, I saw it with my own eyes. I ran into the store and was pretty amazed with the amount of figurines they displayed. Took me almost an hour to decide on which to buy because nothing is cheap over there! Dira kept telling me, "Don't look at me, it's your choice, your money!" Why must I be so indecisive?! With no regrets, I grabbed the Primula nendoroid from Shuffle! And placed it on the counter. Still deciding hard; the two men at the counter looked at me and smiled, questioned me even to make sure if I’m a nendoroid fan and indeed that I am! With such price, S$119 for that little figurine, I was thinking; why so pricey? Whatever, I paid up and got out of the store. Feeling relieved and guilty at the same time. Besides, I won’t be coming to Singapore any time soon again!

KKnM and some other stores at Sunshine Plaza


Gosh, just look at Dante. He had a handsome face in that figurine. Just that, I never got a nice shot of it *sulks*

- Dira had to go see her friend, so mom and I took a taxi to Gleneagles hospital to see grandpa again. Walked into the ward, gong gong was having his daily wash by the cheerful nurses. In the ward, there grandaunt and granduncle sat on the couch feeling rather comfortable wrapped under a thin blanket. I did nothing much but read on the exciting novel I bought 2 days ago while the elder ones had their conversation in Mandarin and sometimes in Hokkien. They told me to write my name in Chinese, and how shocked they were to know that I had steady handwriting. They asked me in Mandarin “Why don’t know Mandarin when you write so well?”. Mom answered them for me, since I didn’t know how to respond in fluent Mandarin at all. Such disadvantage of me.

Day 5

- It was early, around 6.30am. Mom woke me up since it’s time to go. I packed my belongings and felt a sudden emotion upon leaving Singapore. Maybe I do love coming here, for the time being. But I still miss Malaysia and my good friends there. After the warm shower, I peeked into Dira’s room; deep asleep. I decided not to disturb her and brought my luggage downstairs. A little sad because I hadn’t a chance to say good-bye to Dira. She was helpful of bringing mom and I around, since our sense of direction is no good. My mom promised to drop by again during Hari Raya, but she cannot guarantee of bringing me along as SPM awaits me in the early November. Dira’s father, Uncle Rudy, who just arrived from Jakarta last night, drove us to the bus station after dropping off Ozzy to her primary school.

- We bid good-byes, mom and I rushed in for our bus before it’s too late.

- It has been a wonderful trip, at least, I didn’t regret going there at all. I had enjoyed myself. The food, environment, shopping, relatives, Bobo, Dira herself. The journey all the way back home to Subang didn’t seem too long. Maybe because I was too occupied with The Notebook, which I’ve finished reading along the way. It was touching, and sad, and happy, and romantic. I loved how the story was written from the beginning til the very end.

Some of the brushes and pens I bought from there


Dizzy Domokun phone strap

I was really disappointed that I couldn't get the $29.90 Domokun plushie. It looked so perfect! The salesman said that it's not for sale anymore. ZOMG!!!!! *CLAWS*


Oh, SHINee! Watch a few eps of their reality show on Youtube at Sg. Was kinda funny!


Primula and Konata :)


UH, Primula looks a little stoned here, somehow. She makes noises too btw; with just a push of a button. Though I can't exactly figure out what she was saying on the first sentence. Second sentence she was saying out "Neko" which means, cat (LOL)

Yo, trials next week. I came back feeling guilty for not having the time to study. Instead, having all the fun at Singapore. Well, all the best to myself then! D:

 

I gained some weight that it's starting to make me worry.

It is just me. I never liked to work out and I simply love eating. Not impossible to control but it takes a lot of time. Zomg. Just when MPT5 is around the corner, great.

Niama, got called fat twice yesterday. It hurts sometimes, though I've many times been told not to care about what others think. True enough, but, what if it's the fact? I can't just let it be. I'LL BE FATTER THAN NOW, WHEN I ALREADY AM!!!

D;

K whatever it is, just love your god damn body. No matter how fat you are, just freaking love it man. (Though honestly I'm not really loving it at the moment, LOL)

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Damn I forgotten about our monthsary again. Woops!

Happy 46th Month, Momo dearest!

Had to use an old photo (him with shorter hair, me with lala-er fringe); sigh! WE DON'T TAKE ENOUGH PHOTOS TOGETHER. Thats because, I haven't seen him in a month already *whines*

He's sitting for exams this week so all the best to him <3 Seems that he's been studying these days, that he haven't gotten the time to even communicate with me, except for hand signals on webcam. He is excused for that :)

Now I shall go listen go some SHINee, hmm hmm. Good asian music!

Obsessed with copic markers lately.

Je Yue! Let's go to Art Friend and get our arty stuff after trials, want not? :D



This is how I study! Wait, let me rephrase that.
This is how I use up time when supposed to study. Hoorah!

Morning; Christine and I went to Yi Lin's place for a little group study. It didn't quite work out for me, as I didn't get to study much from there. It is clear that I can only handle in self-studying. Because like I've said it before, in group discussions, we'll tend to go off topics and play around! Which we did. Played with Yi Lin's dog, Jaccie, and also the piano.

Yi Lin and I helped to teach Christine play the piano! It's her first time and she has never played it before. She wanted to learn 不能说的秘密 by Jay Chou. At first, it was quite a challenge for a pure beginner. She kept practicing over and over until she got them right! For at least the first few bars lah if you get what I mean. Such a cutie <3

This is Christine playing the introduction of 不能说的秘密 !
*has no idea how to read/write 秘密*

We're super proud of her ;D

Christine and I walked to Taipan after she had enough of her piano practices. Went to Hanwoori Korean Restaurant just above the kopitiam. While waiting for Dhinaa and Jing  Yi to arrive, we sat down, enjoyed the airconditioner and browsed through the menu. We had no idea what to order except the claypot bibimbap. My first time eating it too!

So the two girls arrived, with James as the guest. Jing was sorta making him eat onions and kimchi cabbage, which I can assure you that he didn't like the taste of them. Je Yue also joined us later, our table was filled with dishes that there was no space left. We ended up going for beef and pork BBQ, which tasted really yummy :)

Haha, take a look at Je Yue's face!


Tall medium short :D


Yuan Ming calls us the HORNY BITCHY SEXY ones -_- Which is, false? *runs*


Dhinaa all the way behind!


Sorry Christine and Dhinaa, chopped off and one disappeared behind Je Yue's hand

Need more of these lunch outs with friends. Jinn, THAI/STEAMBOAT, MAU? 8D Oi fat wei, I'm supposed to be controlling. SEE WHAT I MEAN?!?!

I have to sleep now, sigh. Good night :0

Dira's Lumix

It's 2.59am now, Ky's phone call woke me up. We talked for awhile, but it seemed that he's the one turning sleepy after that. He sounded regretful of snipping his hair at the saloon today. Usual boys, they never liked getting hair cuts, do they? And we girls would always find the opportunity to go to the saloon to do something about the hair. Total opposite!

Ky mentioned something about me not having a face of a Chinese. I think we discussed about that several times even before we got together. I asked Lennard personally, he said I looked like a SARAWAKIAN!! WHAT THE?! Commonly heard would be Japanese or Thai but Sarawakian.. that's a first. I also remember Lillian Wee telling me that her mom thought I was mix Arabian. OMG Hilarious.

Oh and, I'm pure Chinese by the way. Do I really NOT look like one?!

Well Marvin looks like a Malay when he's not (haha) Christine's mom even mistaken him for Diyana's brother. Dark eyebrows FTW!

Btw, would you rather have thick eyebrows or have little eyebrows? (perhaps, no eyebrows?)

I'd rather have thick ones because then I can always shape them by shaving/plucking, though I don't shape my eyebrows. Can you imagine yourself having no eyebrows at all? HAHA. Expression-less!

Getting slightly random here. Maybe it's midnight that's why.

Parents think that I'm taking trials very easily. True. I haven't gotten the heavy stress of it. Been quite relaxed all along besides repeatingly memorizing History facts that refuse to enter my brains *and is a little too lazy to catch up with Chapter 7, F5* I guess there's been too many exams that I couldn't care less anymore. Or rather, the fear of exams has suddenly lighten up for now; unless SPM is tomorrow then that's a whole different story.

I had this wonderful nap but sadly was disturbed by a few SMSes and the alarm rang not long after I replied their SMS messages :( !!! Nap time's up.

Tagged by Boobs!

The rules are posted at the beginning: At the end of the post, the player tags 6 people and posts their names, then go to their blog and leave a comment, letting them know they’ve been tagged and ask them to read your blog. Let the person who tagged you know when you’ve posted your answers.

1. What was I doing 10 years ago?
I was still in Brunei, being one of the best students in class of all time. Not to say the best, but my real competitors in academics were my former best friends Ahmad and Azatul. I think they were the only ones with an intelligence in the English language because as far as I know, most of my classmates in Brunei do not really speak English but Ahmad and Zatul are fluent in it and that it is our daily language. Besides, I think they were the only ones I spoke English to, the rest were in Bahasa Baku (because Bruneians speak like that)

Ok back when I was in Brunei. Teachers always liked me, for I dunno what reason. I was the only Chinese in the whole school besides my brother and his good friend Chan Boon Long (which he has already lost contact with). And for some reason, teachers would always pick me and my brother to perform during occasions like Teacher's Day or Hari Kecermelangan. Back then, I hated piano so much because my teacher was a strict bitch. I had no interest in music until I came to Malaysia in 2001, slowly picking it up again on my own. Nevertheless, art has been in me since I was there in Brunei. I would even draw on the walls of my small apartment, that my mom gave up lecturing me about it.

2. What are 5 things on my to-do list today?
It's already late evening, which means the day is about to end. So far, I woke up this morning and got myself prepared for the BM trials which I think I did fairly well compared to previous ones though I did screw up a little on the novel part. Got home from school, I cancelled piano lesson with Ms Chang, read Sejarah topics that Lynette told me to, napped for an hour and here I am right now.

3. Snacks I enjoy:
Honestly, I prefer snacks that taste salty, except for ice-creams. I wouldn't mind having freshly cut mangoes though, ONLY mangoes!

4. Places I’ve lived:
Jalan Gadong, Brunei
Subang Jaya, Malaysia

TWO DIFFERENT COUNTRIES!! Am starting to miss Brunei a little.

5. Things I’d do if I were a billionaire:
Ah there's too many things to do. But firstly I would take mom to Italy or something. She's been wanting to go there especially Rome.

6. People I want to know more about:
Heath Ledger. Seriously, I am still sad about his death early this year.

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Another survey tagged by Boobs again.

1. Six people to tag:
Jinn Ho, Lester Liang, Cramzchan, Shin Yee, Siew Man, Jasmine

2. Six things I'm passionate about:
Art, piano, anime, my ultimately small figurine collection (more nendoroids, please!), food, ky & friends

3. Six things I say too often:
I think I do six ugly faces more than saying six different things!

4. Six books I've read recently:
What can I say, exam season is in. I only read The Notebook by Nicholas Sparks the other day when returning from Singapore.

5. Six songs I listen to again and again:
Uh, I got like 1420 songs on my playlist right now (I didn't include the Chinese playlists, ok)
But at the moment...

Jordin Sparks - One Step At A Time
SHINee - Replay (Piano)
SHINee - Love like Oxygen
青山テルマ (Thelma Aoyama)  feat. Soulja - そばにいるね (Sobaniirune)
絢香 (Ayaka) - Mikazuki
Pianoboy - The Truth That You Leave

6. Six things I've learnt in the past:
- Don't be too nice to people, they won't appreciate it or do the same in return.
- Be tolerant. It's up to them whether they want to change their attitude or not and I'm sick of advising them, because in the end they're the ones facing reality.
- Try to be independent. I've always been relying on parents and Ky whenever I'm out of home.
- Never take things personally. Sit back, relax, take a chill pill. No point fussing over stupid things.
- Be original and natural at all times. Why cheat yourself for?
- Love yourself no matter what. Because then I wouldn't deserve loving my family, friends and Ky.

Korean fangirling ahead. Don't read if you're not interested!



SHINee in sexier version ;D Love their hair better this way!

Taemin so need to get rid of his mushroom head and stick to his newer hairstyle.

*SLURRRRR*

I feel like a pedophile right now, because Taemin is only 15 years of age (youngest in the group). But what to do, he's so adorable. Plus he's the lead dancer, which means, his dance moves are damn awesome!! Not to mention the other hunkies of SHINee especially lead vocalist, Jong Hyun, 18 (but because Hui Yee told me to back off from him *sniff*) and group leader, Onew, 19. I suddenly lost interest in Key, 18, and I never really liked Minho, 17, somehow, because he just didn't seem that appealing to me *runs around* But he has this deep sexy voice and his rap is nice, but nevermnd Taemin's still the best in terms of talent and maybe even physical appearance! *glee*

Sigh and they're around my age. Where can find such talents like these boys at such age PLUS attractive in Malaysia? :P

Leader Onew is always the one wearing a hat, or at least, something outstanding to show that he's the leader. However, Onew didn't seem like a leader at all. I don't know maybe because he never really presented himself as one that well. Plus he's not to say the lead vocalist or the lead dancer or even the rapper of the group, he's just the subvocalist. In fact, Jong Hyun was more like the leader because he's probably one of the most talented ones as he's the lead vocalist, writes music AND he's the most admirable one; besides Taemin of course. People favour Taemin because he's got that baby cute kinda thing but Jong Hyun's more of the hotter one.

Taemin = Nyaaa~!!
Jong Hyun = Fwaaa~!!

So, it's different. LOL.

Oh yeah not forgetting their world album, Love Like Oxygen. Their music video for that song is awesome as usual because of their dance moves. Though I still prefer Replay! I've never been bored of it ever since the day I started listening to it.

There's English paper in 7 hours so I have to go to bed. *Dreams for a SHINee poster in my room* :D

 

History paper will be on in 8 hours. All I can do now is pray that whatever is coming out won't be too difficult to be answered with this almost worthless brain of mine.

Anyway, am just here to promote Momo's collaborated blog, Lemons n Onions, with his all time fellow gay pals, Philemon, Wai Lee and Zhao Ming. Well honestly, I have no idea why they suddenly came up with the idea of having a blog full of pure randomness, nonsensical humor and not forgetting people that are completely insane and out of the world. Anyways, I just love the way they made their posts sound retardedly stupid and fun at the same time, especially Zhao Ming's lolzomg.

"Together We Share Our Dominance!" - their so called theme? ROFL.

So, VISIT and SUPPORT PS-WL-ZM-KY! Trust me, reading their blog will make you feel like awfully unaware of being inclined to their corruptive stories, that you may prolly end up just like them. (I think they love 'fiction' a little too much, that's why)

Sometimes I don't get what they're writing though, because Ky is shy. Don't ask why they added Naruto's "Sadness and Sorrow" as part of their media player (LOL GAY) though it is quite an emotional song (For a blog so silly, kinda odd eh :P)

You know, I couldn't sleep last night because of itch and irritation. I have made an assumption that the mosquitoe season is back. Mosquitoes literally flew around my head, AGAIN! Fuck, do you know how irritating it is to have them buzzing only few centimetres away from your pinna?! Thankfully I managed to sleep off for three hours (only), after I crawled into bed with mom in the master bedroom (masturbate room?) D:

Gosh speaking of masturbate, I still remember that particular conversation I had with dad when he brought me to the cyber cafe at SS15 back in standard four.

"Daddy, what's masturbate?"
"CHEH, WHY SUDDENLY ASK THIS?"
"Dunno, this guy on chat said it to me"
"It's playing kukujiao lah"
"..Ooh.."

Thinking back to that was like, isn't it kinda ridiculous of me to ask that in the first place?! Goodness. Kids are always curious, don't you agree?

Anyway back to mosquitoe. Since I've already sprayed Ridsect, I so pray that the mosquitoes don't come back tonight. If not, I think them mosquitoes will steal my History facts off my puny brains.

This is so funny yet it tells us a message from this short pictorial story that may happen in reality.

Banana and orange sex, zomg. How are people so creative with such ideas? Moral of the story, jangan berlaku curang!

Lmao.

I needed something to laugh about, seriously. An hour ago I had a long conversation with Ky about certain issues, that it took up most of my time. I have yet to finish reading four chapters. Thank God it only took me 30 minutes or so to finish memorizing Moral earlier, if not I think tomorrow is like a kantoi-day for me. While I was sitting on my bed, TRYING to read History, I kept dreaming off or fantasizing about freedom. I'd usually dream about the urge to see Ky again, wondering how will I meet him the next time, and when will that 'next time' be? Missing everything that he did for me and simply every minute that we've spent together made me space off from my textbook, losing all the concentration while time continues ticking. This must not happen during trial exams!!! Gah.

I feel like drawing something too, to de-stress myself but I see that there's no time left for me. Sigh!

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I just got up knowing that I had this some sort of nightmare. After reading Jia Shin's latest post about the end of the world on 2012, thoughts about it kept disturbing my mind until it made me dream about it.

I remember running away from an apartment with Ky because we felt an earthquake. The entire earth was, vibrating? Ky drove us off to somewhere further, somewhere across the lake where we could clearly see the Twin Towers, it was indeed a beautiful scenery with warm coloured skies but the situation had put us in fright more than appreciating the beauty of nature. Being caught in fear, I was holding onto Ky very tightly. Suddenly this bright yellowish light came towards our direction, the buildings of Kuala Lumpur started to fall gradually and explosives were everywhere. I knew we had no where to escape but to accept this; our death, our world is going to end. This warmth firey feeling was drawing nearer to us, we're going to be caught in this crazy heat and explosion in a split second. I felt my skin melting away, the pain was unbearable. "I love you" was the last thing I said, grasping myself to Ky even closer. Soon enough, our skins immediately vanished into the thin air, I can no longer feel my presence with him and that he's also gone forever. Came this black atmostphere, with a white light shining down on me.

What the heck?

Full view please

I haven't drawn in ages. As in something that suddenly inspires me to. Today's a little different though. I drew because I want to prove you people that my partner's love for me is stronger than what you think. He may not show it out very much, but I could see the inside of it. It did hurt, those words, it hurt so bad that when I swallowed my saliva I felt a slight lump in my throat, but I still took it. Opinions may vary, though I really didn't expect anyone to have such thoughts about my relationship. By the way, those weren't facts, those were merely assumptions. Anyways, I did appreciate your effort for letting it go, thanks for your honesty!


"They are sprinting. You are running for a marathon"

Words like these had made my day, thank you.

And, being caught in sore throat and cough at a moment like this is a no-no. What more when it's still in the exam season? Sigh.

On a brighter note, I'm still up and going. I know I'm quite sensitive and stuff, but I just have to learn to let things go and have faith in myself. I'm glad I've made a huge lesson for today. Nothing can stop me from loving him and I have definitely proven that well. 

Totally made my day! It's so funny and random at the same time! Chonny is awesome. Asians rock!
Nigahiga, Kevjumba, Chonny, who's next?

"Can you help me?"
"Sure"

Being helpful is a good deed. But have you ever wondered if someone has returned that good deed of yours? You know you deserve it, and somehow, we wait patiently for it to come. However, not everybody are grateful. I've faced it many times, what about you?

Going out soon. Mom suddenly decided to bring me out because she thinks I needed time to relax. Also because she's been wanting to spend some time with me. We're gonna watch Money Not Enough 2, hehe. Love ya mom!
 

I know I shouldn't be here because I should either be resting (my flu and cough suddenly became worse, the doctor decided to give me the medication that puts me in drowsy mode), practicing seni (which I'm going to right after this) or read up Biology which I've only touched TWO chapters, mind you! It clearly shows that I have slacked throughout the weekends. Not to really say slack lah, I have my reasons too - I rested a lot due to this bad cold! SERIOUSLY. You so don't want to fall sick during an exam season.

At least I still have my manja dog, Buddy. He's always there to cheer me up :) Each time he makes that manja face, I cannot resist not giving him a treat, like biscuits or plain bread, he totally digs it LOL. This shows why Buddy is as fat as his owner (lol much)

Uh, don't we look so alike? Haha. My dog is SMILING! <3 I tell you, no dog can beat him in handsomeness!! Not because he's my dog, but seriously he's the most good looking dog I've had all my life. Ok fine I'll give credits to little dogs like miniature shnauzer, shih tzu, toy poodle, jack russel, Pomeranian, yorkshire terriers (and the list goes on because I'm a serious dog lover, no one can beat me). They're really cute too, just that  it's probably not my type for having tiny dogs as pets since I prefer dogs that are average - large in size! They look manlier lol.

I've always wanted a golden retreiver or a labrador last time but mom suddenly thought of getting a cocker spaniel, which is the only dog I have now that I love so much :) And he's the most handsome cocker spaniels I've ever seen, damn lucky man. And at least he's not stupid like some dogs, because he was trained since he was a puppy. Hey I did my duty as an owner to train him to sit, lay his head down, lay down, shaking paws, high 5 and many mor. I tell him to EAT also he really went and eat okay, no kidding. Ok la I know my dog's the best, just that he's a bit angin at times, he would bite me til I bleed for no reason.. so I always have to be careful when to pat him. But mom's taking to the vet to de-stress him by giving him a jab. Sigh, can't bare to watch him suffer!

Buddy is aging already (not as old as Sheng's dog, Jacky, though) but I don't think I'd like to see him die one day. I've experienced a few dogs of mine that died due to old age and tragic moments (being caught in a car accidents) and it was really hurtful to watch my maid burry the dogs under mom's garden in Brunei. I also remember my other stray dog, Blacky, before we had Buddy in Malaysia. He died due to a sudden heart attack. It happened when Jing Yi and her brother came to my house for a visit, and they saw me crying :(

So you people, please love animals!! They have feelings just like us humans. I simply hate to see people abuse their animals just because they're not behaving well. Torturing won't make them improve any better.

Btw I'd rather have a dog, than a cat, seriously. You'll know it once you have pets.

Ok I should really get going before I continue on about animals, since I love them so much. Except insects, cockroaches are shitty and I have to be the one chasing + killing cockroaches when bro and I were home alone. Why? HE'S 10 TIMES MORE AFRAID THAN I AM! He stands on the chair and screams like a girl while I had to do the job instead. You know how much I hate cockroaches that FLY?! Not forgetting mosquitoes, urgh.

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So I'm back from doing my seni practice. Turned out OK I guess, I managed to finish it before 3 hours *phew* and uh I haven't studied theory lol dead.

This morning Sora dropped by to collect monies from me because my Shana Resinya! figurine is finally here <3 A little upset that I had to pass him RM211 for that but I guess figurines are always worth that much because the craftsmanship is so darn perfect most of the time.

On Saturday I watched Money Not Enough 2 with mom. It was a great show, I totally enjoyed it. Laughter and tears at the same time! I simply love it when they spoke Hokkien more than Mandarin, because I gotta admit that the Hokkien language sounds really funny most of the time! Ah Singaporean shows are so good :) They never fail to make people learn a big lesson from their movies. In this show, it's to care about your parents, love them with all your heart and money doesn't mean anything! Go watch it!!

I know I have a real bad sorethroat and stuff but Mom brought me to Ole-Ole Bali and I seriously couldn't resist NOT eating spicy food (there goes my throat) C'mon, who eats non-spicy food in a Balinese restaurant?! I think it's really stupid to eat western food there too, why do they even bother to put western food on the menu anyways?

So we had this Ole-Ole Trio. A little dry though, too much fried squids but their sambal, ayam goreng and satay with lemon grass were tasty. If only there were more gravy O_O It wasn't that spicy anyway, even I think mom's food can be 10 times spicier than this. Wei Yan can die eating my mom's food lol whereas Jinn would go slurping all the way? She's my spicy food partner, though I have my "spicy limit" which I think is already over-spicy while she doesn't.. wtf monster.

I feel like eating curry now, zomg :( I think I'm just hungry. And I feel like watching movies which I obviously am not allowed to. Noessss.. nevermind, two more weeks!

As for now... *drags feet to own room* ;_____;

 

 

Zomg it's here!!! Sora said it's fucking huge, and yeah it IS huge! (It's so cute that he placed Melissa on top of the box!) Sadly I can only get my hands on her another time due to exams and I don't want mom to see me carrying this upstairs. Ahhh SHANA <33 Thanks Sora XDDD

Good news to my fellow gang! Ji Lynn is back from Melbourne! Can you believe it that I actually forgotten her birthday? I WAS SO BACKDATED!! 2ND SEPTEMBER WAS THE DAY SHE TURNED 17. God, what the hell, I was too busy in Singapore until forgotten about it. Happy Belated Birthday, Ji Lynn! She's finding a day to hangout with us so people make your schedule free after trials :)

Did I mention that mom's going to Singapore again on the 1st to 6th of October? Sigh, I wish I can tag along but nevermind that, Ji Lynn might organize a gathering instead! Heh, can't wait to see this little bitch!

Back to revising Seni. I know it sounds stupid studying for seni, but still, it's a must anyway.

P/S: Happy 17th Birthday to Eugene Ho Kang Loke, dear little pet brother ;D

 

 

 

Art paper II got cancelled today. What the hell? Teachers are so irresponsible nowadays. Why was it cancelled? Because none of the teachers want to stay back to take care of us for 3 hours (because the paper lasts for that long) So, Seni gang and I have to sit for that paper on Thursday instead. Which is even more hectic because the next day would be Chemistry. Die man.

Paper I was quite tough, sigh. As for EST, it was okay I guess but EST is unpredictable so I shall not comment further.

Something I did during Seni exam, but retraced in Photoshop. Usually I don't draw serious/mature looking people because I prefer cute/chibi thingies (heh, it's so me!) so I was just testing out :) The proportions really suck btw but I'm quite proud of this one *HOHO* oops said out Jinn's surname, sorry 8D

Anyone with Chemistry tips? Getting slightly worried here, lol.

Thank Lord there's no class tomorrow. Sigh, I wish I could sleep in but then Biology is no risk to take since I did horribly for pre-trials. Biology man, it's supposed to be my best among all the Science subjects I took. Well, screw reproduction and inheritance for pulling down my marks. I suck so bad in those chapters.

LOL HAY IT'S THE BRAIN & KIDNAYYY!! Plus hair erector muscles on the right hahaha!
Mabel drew the brain and told me to label the parts, which I totally fail at.

As I was chatting with Hon Kitt...

- † r3b0rn & r3b|rTh † [s.d.F] ŁíqÛîđ ßäŝšǺĝęñŤ єїэ says:
hahahahha oh yea i saw a girl who looks like u just now while waiting to get into the exam hall
- ° уυмι - momo's bitch says:
wth
- ° уυмι - momo's bitch says:
so many ppl look like me wan
- † r3b0rn & r3b|rTh † [s.d.F] ŁíqÛîđ ßäŝšǺĝęñŤ єїэ says:
hair alike eyes alike =D
- ° уυмι - momo's bitch says:
this is the 7th time ppl tell me
- † r3b0rn & r3b|rTh † [s.d.F] ŁíqÛîđ ßäŝšǺĝęñŤ єїэ says:
lol jade ish chomel =3
- ° уυмι - momo's bitch says:
MY LOOK SO COMMON

Seriously, that's like the 7th time someone said they saw a person that looks just like me. My looks are so 'rare' woohoo.. not something to be hyped about because who knows one day I might bump into a Jade twin. Creepy. So now everyone looks like this not-so-Chinese-looking girl with dark thick hair, dark eyebrows, big eyes with fat cheeks. Eh, who knows if they're hairy like me as well? LOL! I would love to hunt for more hairy bitches besides just me, Melissa, Christine and Diyana. Coz honestly it sucks being called "bulu" "hairy beast" "monkey" and all sorts. I know arms/hands are more visible but look on the brighter side, I don't have super hairy legs like men!

K I know so well that my camwhoring skills already gone rusty, I haven't been playing with my Lumix a lot lately. I don't have inspiration to capture any nice photos too. Well not like that handy digital camera can do magic but it's good enough, plus photoshop of course :(

Blah this post is so random, it's like jumbled up with everything else.

Anyways gotta drag my feet to my room again *weeps away*

 

Sometimes I wonder.

Do people actually realise what they have said in the past, reflects back to them in the present? I see it so clearly now. Time after time, people change and they no longer need your presence, your advise, your careness, your voluntary help because they think that their life is now perfect without you being the one leading them to success.

In Malay, it is called bagai kacang melupakan kulit

Familiar? If you do not know this simple Malay idiom, I have nothing to say but learn up before SPM is going to kill you by not generously giving you a credit.

I'm saying this in general, not pointing out to someone directly alright.

A person so warm hearted, soulful and trustworthy. Like I said, people change. They turn egoistic after knowing that their life is already complete or what not. They put you to one side, telling you unpleasant things you would dismay, neglect you and then thinks "Damn you're such a pest, fuck off already". In other words, forgets about being appreciative and stops maintaining a good relationship with others because they just don't care about you anymore. And little did we know, judging in dispassion seems to do this little trick to hurt every other people's feelings. I don't think they ever notice what they have 'issued', because it really does reflect  back to what they are currently, just that they have not a single idea of it. Soon they would come to realise, I hope for that to happen.

No one would understand me from this post. I hate to say this but, I seriously loathe people who do not know how to look in the mirror. Please understand yourself better before trying to 'understand' others that may cause accidental utter disheartenments.


"People change. They just keep changing"
"I had no idea because I thought I could lend my trust on that person, but I guess I was wrong"
"Ever heard of this word called two faced?"
"Yeah"
"Admit it. They're egoistic now after having this perfect life. It's no use to bother anymore"
"I don't know..."


I regretted. I really should have listened.


You disgust me. You are a disgrace. You are a great disappointment. God bless you in life.


Remember; What goes around, comes around.

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Screw this.

It's 1.11am now and I've yet to complete the plants subtopics in Reproduction (I HATE READING UP ON PLANTS!) and form 4's Mitosis and Meiosis! Jade Jade, never do last minute revision again :( Well that's what I always tell myself and yet I still do it. Stubborn.

People I miss hanging out with; Hon Kitt, Ji Lynn and even Christine although I see her almost everyday! I haven't gotten the time to bitch and shop with this sayang of mine ever since dunno when (she always can't go out, what to do!) Seriously I can't wait for trials to end, I so need to catch up with these three VIPs of mine!

MPT5 is just around the corner. No time to lose weight la!! LOL I'm so failing at this. I'm probably going to have a real hard time finding the right dress.

Kido's Diet Tips:

1) Eat heavier breakfast and lunch
2) Eat only biscuits and drink milo for dinner (-_- wtf is this, I cannot la. I NEED FOOD, NOT SNACKS!!!)

That's about it and in just a few months, there's been a tremendous change in his physical appearance. He looked more fit this time, slimmer and better looking too :)

KIDO, I KNOW YOU'RE READING THIS SILENTLY AND CHUCKLING AWAY BECAUSE YOU'RE PROBABLY KEMBANG-ING NOW!!!! I'm still gonna call you "Fats Pls" til' you get unsatisfied, I dont care man! :P

What's with guys nowadays, getting vainer and vainer. They're worse than us girls now. Do you realise most of them are losing weight and some are NOT EATING PROPERLY? And they kept complaining about how fat they are. *smacks forehead*

Shit lah Biology test is in six hours. Hallelujah.

I'm so freaking glad I had gone through the hardcoreness of Chemistry, and you do know how much I dislike this particular subject. (Most disliked subject ever although I disliked Physics more last year but it's different now) Now I just need to sit for the paper... -_- Not fun.

What's so great about Chemistry anyway? I rather do Moral than Chemistry even how much Moral doesn't make much logical sense to students. I'm quite regretful for not having to attend tuition for Chemistry. Look at the outcome now, I've been struggling in each and every examination. And it's probably too late to search for a tutor since SPM is less than two months away. Oh damn. I LACK OF CHEMISTRY KNOWLEDGE!! Sometimes it's only just enough to get me pass the border line, which is of course super risky. Plus, how many times in life have I passed Chemistry? I think three times only and it never got to a high grade C before <-- not even a B I tell you so how am I supposed to get 11As for SPM? HAHA MUST BE JOKING!! It's like I immediately turned stupid after entering Form 4.. what more Form 5?

I think I should stop calling Ky stupid but call MYSELF stupid instead.

(I've a huge tendency to call him stupid/idiot over the phone because it's a habit, not because he's one)


Ky: So what did you have for dinner?
Me: Rice la, stupid
Ky: Why you call me stupid?
Me: No la you're not stupid.
Ky: Oh, then?
Me: You're VERY stupid!

Yeah that kind of thing. Sort of his normal 'tactic' which I copied.


Me: Hehe, I love you! (mushy mushy much)
Ky: No, I don't love you. Break up now, beech.
Me: ... why? (I know he's kidding but I like to play along)
Ky: I don't love you, but I love you VERY much!

Damn lame, right? I'm immuned to his 'stupidity' and lameness already after all these years.

Yeah so Chemistry can go die because I'm VERY stupid in it, haha. NICE & BOLDED VERY!!

Sigh. Early morning la, why so hyperactive.. *shrugs* I only had 2 1/2 hours of sleep so uhhhhh hopefully I can last til 12.40pm then IF I STILL HAVE ENERGY, I might want to go Mid Valley with Kin Miao (if he's free...) because I haven't been catching up with him. I've this feeling that I've been neglecting a great friend like him, sigh ._. so yeah, gotta make up for it!! Dunno parents allow or not, usually they don't like me to go out during an exam season. Understandable too.

I'll go watch an episode of My Super Sweet Sixteen online before I get ready for school. I dunno why but I like watching it although how bitchy those girls can be. I just want to see how luxurious they get, and how bimbotic they want to spend their parents money like it's so abundant. Tsk tsk. But gotta admit that their parties always look so extravagant, it makes me go wow sometimes. It's everyone's dream to have a nice memorable party out there anyways!

Good luck to the rest in Chem test ;)

*Has edited this post completely; because I took off the all the emo parts, which was disturbing my sleep last night. Lol

I had a talk with mom before she went to bed last night. Talked about general stuff, nothing too personal, but it has been awhile since I've shared stories with her. Also Kin Miao, I was out at Mid Valley with him yesterday noon to just hang out since I also haven't been up to date with his life. He made me realise and learn certain things when we were riding in a cab on the way home. It just seemed that he's experienced life more than I did, which I of course think is great. He managed to knock some sense in me about bigger and more important things in life, not just little chitty-chatters that can only drag me down to hell.

So at MV, I browsed around at the couple Ts stall earlier, but I just decided not to buy it until Ky is around with me, so we can choose em' together.

Kin Miao and I had endless conversations even while walking around, that Philemon and Wai Lee who coincidentally by passed me, didn't want to interrupt us. They informed Ky about me appearing in the mall with another guy, which sounded so damn wrong, and made him a quite concerned so he phoned me when I was having BR ice-cream. Sounding quite worried, he proceeded to ask who that guy was.

"It's just Kin Miao, mo"

He sounded a little relieved then, because he obviously knew that Kin Miao's just a close friend of mine. I got worried for nothing, because I thought he's been upset with me for going out with a guy friend, which I hope he isn't.

"Why you go Midvalley today? I'm going tomorrow with my friends. You should have called me today, I MIGHT be able to go coz it's MV what, got LRT there."
".............there goes my chance for meeting you again"


Why is it that fate in us don't seem to occur very often lately, huh? SIGH!! And then, the things I'd do when I'm extremely desperate.. -_-

So anyways, since I was already at MV, I took a visit to Art Friend at The Gardens as introduced by Je Yue. The store wasn't as huge as Singapore's, and of course the amount of art supplies were nothing compared to there. But I think it's good enough la :) I searched for the Copic markers section all over and finally found them. Kin Miao probably know I'm a very indecisive person when comes to choosing MANY things that I like. With the help of his, I managed to get three colours of Copic Ciao brush tipped markers for RM9.80 each. Cheaper than I thought!, well also because Copic Ciao is meant for beginners, Copic Sketch is the real one I've wanted. I could've bought more but I lacked of cash. *Must bring parents next time*

I WANT ALL!!!!!! But each markers and pens from this Copic brand is super expensive, except the one I got (no.5 in the photo) I've been using Copic Sketch (no.2) most of the time but it's hard to find it around KL except Kinokuniya, KLCC. Je Yue uses the original Copic (no.3).

I think this is an old photo, because there's more types of copics nowadays. Would love to try airbrushing one day (no.8) :) :)

We also watched The Love Guru! I know we're kinda late for that but since MV still had the show on, we just decided to watch it since we've heard good reviews about it. What can I say? It sure was a hilarious movie! I'm not quite a fan of Mike Myers because I always thought he's quite ridiculous in Austin Powers, but he does know how to make his shows quite entertaining at most times. Lol Justin Timberlake was like really stupid in the show HAHAHA I couldn't believe it was him ROFLMAO!! Image spoiler man, I always thought of Justin as the hot talented singer, now after watching Love Guru, he's like the stupidest fuck ever! Funneh.

Kin Miao and I had to take a public transport home. He suggested the KTM. We bought the tickets and waited for the train for almost 30 minutes, and the clock had strucked 7PM, which means, MORE PEOPLE ARE GOING BACK HOME AT THAT HOUR! I could smell bad odours from just the platform itself. What more if we squeeze in the train, it's gonna be packed, stinky and stuffy! So we screw KTM and went to the bus stop. K, he had no idea where to stop and which train to take. It was already 7.30 by then, and I needed to rush home for Nazri's class. Then last alternative would be the taxi. The que was long and we waited for 15 minutes or so. At least we got a nice taxi driver who didn't charge us with a high price. And yeah I was 10 minutes late for Nazri's.

I had a deep sleep, but I think there were bad dreams in it, I just can't remember what it was. I  just know I saw children being eaten by cannibals, wth. I never liked gruesome shits like this, so very unpleasant.

Oh and um, I officially flunked Chemistry. DIE.

The things I bought yesterday.

Oh yeah, almost forgot.

HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY TO INCADIA!!! a.k.a... INDIA!!! (He's too busy to layan me in the photo ;_;)

He's the PTS dude from Kedah but currently studying in Taylors Subang, so he's the same age as me but is in college (and I'm elder than him  by six months!) BUT HE GOT SELECTED FOR NS! XD AW tough luck thar, India. I always thought I'd never meet up with him ever, because he lived in Kedah his whole life. At least he decided to shift to Subang to continue on with his studies! He and I used to argue a lot in RO because we always have different point of views and shit like that, plus he used to talk so coldly! At least now that I've known his true self, he's indeed a nice friend to have around with. Plus, I never knew he was quite sporting in reality. I always assumed him as the quiet and shy type of person, which I was wrong, haha! You know la how friends in the virtual world, can be different in the real world once you see them personally!

K I gotta go dig for breakfast.

 

 

Since I had spare time, why not use it to draw something and test out the Copics I just bought? Dad was a little unhappy that I rather do art more than studying Physics in the early afternoon. Heh.

I think I did really badly in colouring -_- I lacked of colours anyway and I don't know the proper technique to colour. Hopefully Mr Tham will teach me colouring with Copic one day :D

I only liked the pencil version. Even I suck at inking!! It takes a whole lot of patience.

A better view for my ugly piece!!

I was emotionally disturbed since dunno when, so that's why this girl is crying (the tears are shit man) Usually I'd draw happier things. That's OK, I think the colours to this drawing is happy enough *lol* at least I didn't use monotonous colours.

Hm. I was browsing through DeviantART for inspiration earlier, then I came across this artpiece by a Thai dude.

What is so unique about this that I find? It's not just the way he drew or colours. It's the type of media he used.
It's not just watercolour... he used Ox blood! ANIMAL BLOOD YOU SAY! Sounds like gore when you think of dipping your brush into blood and paint it over the piece of paper. Of course the blood will be oxidised sooner or later, the red will turn brown in the end. The artist mentioned that the blood smelled really bad during the process. Damn this guy is cool and really talented! XD He said he's planning to use human blood one day, zomg even worse.

;___; Damn those people for such talent.. *fails*

 

 

I learned a big big lesson from Momo's once-in-a-life-time scolding last night. Thank you, I only realised I was behaving unlike myself these past few days after what you told me. I've been down, emotionally disturbed, and just suddenly had zero confidence in everything. It was pointless of me to be upset over these things, and the worst was, I did nothing about it besides just weeping. What on earth was I thinking? After all those coarse voices and swollen eyes, it was worth it that Momo was showing his concern about my current self, he wanted me to change back to the Mimi he once knew. The confident, fun and I-dont-give-a-shit-what-people-say attitude. I promise I will. It's for the better - for myself and for us.

I was sensitive over stupid things. Even physical appearance. The most I'd call myself is fat, which is true. Suddenly I thought I was ugly, obese and in bad posture. Lol just one small thing can make me think of all sorts of negative crap. Ky said I probably took too much medicine -_- but the time of the month is coming too, so I suppose it's also that.

Today I got up, feeling much better, but my double eyelids on my left eye disappeared LOL. It'll come back soon =_=

To make myself feel happier, I looked through old photos again. Haha, I love looking at our past years pictures. It makes me feel that we've been connected throughout our teenage life. Soon adulthood!! HAHA I really hope so :) So it shows that, Ky isn't a bad boyfriend at all. If he doesn't love me,  then why did he bother to call me every night before he sleeps or even bother to point out my mistakes until I get it no matter how stubborn I am? He's the only person who will make me realise what's gone wrong with myself. So if people think our relationship is out of border, I have nothing to say but our love is certainly strong at any time, anywhere, any shit that can happen although we don't express it out as much as couples do because we're not the super clingy type & we think it works better that way so we have more space for each other since you know, WE HAVE A LIFE AND FUTURE TO THINK OF? XD

So what that we're not very romantic or as magnificent as others... it's not like we're engaged or winning a freaking bet.

AND IT'S NOT LIKE WE WERE FRIENDS FROM THE REAL WORLD AT FIRST, I MET HIM ONLINE AND WE'RE STILL WORKIN' IT UP TO NOW LOL I ALSO CAN'T BELIEVE IT. I STILL LOVE THAT DAMN GUY FROM THE ORC DUNGEON IN RAGNAROK ONLINE AND HE LOVES THAT SWORDSGIRL WHO'S DESPERATE FOR A GUILD!!

Sorry I just have to say it. It's pretty boastful but... WE'RE SO FUCKING AWESOME!


Anyways to end it, here's photos of us from 2004-2008 ;) I've noticed that Ky and I have been changing our style every year, or so to say. Look at how much we've transformed!

I love you, Ding Kien Yue. Nothing can stop us, hor?

And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
It's you, it's you, You make me sing
You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.
Michael Buble - Everything

 

 

... and 6 more to go! The ones left I'm most afraid of would be Add Math D: Pn Loy suspected Marvin for having the leaked questions for today's exam, so I don't know what's gonna happen. Resit for Physics? Wtf, I don't think I want to go through that again!! K I don't mind Physics BUT DEFINITELY NOT CHEMISTRY!

Today I got my gray coloured contact lenses from Shin Yee. Still in curiousity on how it'll turn out but since I don't have the solution thingie and even the guts to poke my eye with it, I don't know when I'll start trying! XD Plus I'm hiding this from mom since she doesn't allow me wearing contact lenses. Cherie & Ayane mama, I shall annoy you guys with my new foetus eyes! >;D Hey that rhymed!

Random:

XD I found these .GIF photos I did of Hsien Yoong & Xing Sheng some time ago! LOL it looks so disturbing yet funny :3 Decided to just put it up again for laughs!

OH one of our ugly farm animal friend's birthday is just around the corner!! <33

I'll go nap for awhile before I start Modern Math. I've been neglecting Math for the whole time,  left UNTOUCHED for weeks.

Btw, I'm so bored of humans who love to pretend and boast. Never mind, tolerance is very good! Keep it up, Jade 8D *skips away~~*

 

It's 3.14am now.. I just finished preparing myself for Add Math test for tomorrow. I mean, later. My hands are extremely sore from writing too much and I'm damn exhausted from seeing way too many numbers and unknowns already. And I think throughout the whole of this year, TODAY was the only day I revised with such extreme hours. From 3pm to 3.00am; ALMOST NONSTOP. How the hell I did that ar? Why can't I study Sejarah like this too?! -_- Doing Add Math won't make you realise about how fast the time passes, seriously. I even had to tell Momo that we couldn't talk tonight because I was rushing up .___. Sorry, Mo.

Yi Lin and Kin Miao who came over in the afternoon to have a group discussion that lasted for almost 6 hours. NO KIDDING WTF

"ARGH, CAN'T DO THIS"
"How ar?"
"Yi Lin, can help me check?"
"Pass"
"Fuck this question"
"HOW TO DO THIS?!"
"YES I GOT IT, WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!"
"Oh my goddddddd"
"Yi Lin Yi Lin Yi Lin Yi LiN yI lInadksajdsdasdljjglakjsexsexlol"

Yeah, those were pretty much what we've been saying most of the time.

ONLY 4 MORE PAPERS TO GO!!! END IT ALREADY DAMN IT!!

I'm so tired, blah blah blah and I only have 3 hours to sleep. After school later I'm gonna go have 3 - 4 hours of nap I don't care lol.

Nights.

I don't know why but I think Sheng is slowly turning into a horse... he keeps looking like one these days!! Sorry la friend hahaha! Just had to.

So what is Sheng known for besides just being called "Horse" (as started by Christine) ?

He has the "skill" to interrupt your photo taking session successfully!! IT'S SO ANNOYING, LOL. Another thing is, he hardly ever fails to enter at least half or 1/4 of the photo!

 
He spoils your photos (HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!) Seriously la wei, he's just so good at making ugly faces! I won't stop laughing whenever my friends and I browse through his ugly pictures!




He likes doing the pussy lick expression, with the tongue rolling out (I couldn't find a nice photo of him doing that) So these should do :P God knows why he's addicted to this, LOL. Plus it's rather disturbing and embarrassing if he does it in public XD

Imagine:

"Waiter!"
*Waiter approaches*
"Hi, I'd like a glass of water please?" *PUSSY LICK EXPRESSION"
"....."

How much do you know about this humorous guy named Darius Khoo Xing Sheng?

You ask;

Why is he so random? Why is he so lame? Why does he look like a horse? How does he annoy people? Why is he so good at making ugly faces? How does he make people laugh with his spontaneous jokes?

That's the nature of him!! And that's why we're all friends with this damn bastard :D Aren't we all glad to have him around to make the world a better place to live in? OK la abit exaggerating. He's actually not that great HAHAHA, kidding :P He's an awesome close friend of mine although he has quite some ego there but that's OK, that's what makes him a horse :P (doesn't make sense, does it?) There's this one similarity between us; Making ugly faces.. and he totally beat me in it LOL! Nevermind Sheng, I'll be better than you one fine day.

Since we've gone through so many ups and downs together, facing plenty of problems since the past and had to solve them together. I still remember once you had to call me to settle all the complications of some pressuring situation. And you're so nice to  be the one who accompany me out of home sometimes. The list goes on, and like what Lester said in his post, I only got closer and retarded with this Xing Sheng when we were in secondary. Heck, only in form 3 if not mistaken! :)


So uh wait, what date is it today? Gosh this post is so damn obvious, haha.


IT'S SHENG'S UGLY 17TH BIRTHDAY!!

He is fortunate this year due to the last day of exam falling on the date of his birth. He never got to celebrate his birthday every year with his friends because final exams were the obstacles. So I'm pretty darn sure that he's looking forward to this 17th of this ;) Finally a MAN, huh?

With your joker self these years, I seem to love you for your darn stupidity that I actually turned stupid with your influence!! Now that's what I call a friend. HAHA. You never fail to make me laugh my heart out.

Happy Birthday, Shengster. You're one of the most interesting person in our circle of friends, that is what I cannot deny! Stay hilarious and please don't so health conscious :P Continue eating your nuts and YOUR NUT will drop off.


P/S: Only two papers left. Bio III and EST I. Wish me luck!

 

Meh, fun and sucky day all at the same time. Anyways. I'll talk about yesterday's first.

We had Nazri's class at night and I was fully prepared to go for the yumcha session at Station 1, Taipan right after class with Christine, Sheng and Lynette. Half way during class, Nazri was distracted by Sheng because he kept turning behind to talk to Jonathan and Lynette so Nazri opened Sheng's bottle of water and tried to splash it on him. Sheng tried to avoid it by grasping it tightly so that the water wouldn't splash all over him but after all the vigorousness, unfortunately I was the one who got wet. I thought I'd take it lightly but I got pissed with Sheng and Cikgu Nazri for doing that so I remained silent throughout. Sorry Sheng, I know it's your birthday but I seem to be really sensitive these days ._.

Thank goodness the time passed quickly then it was time to leave class. I walked with three of them to Christine's place, took the cake I told Christine to buy secretly without Sheng's knowledge and off we went to Taipan! Jing Yi, Dhinaa, Jocelyn, Kar Mern were there but sadly Jing and Dhinaa had to leave soon for whatever reason that is :( Sheng was the only guy at first! Then later Melvin and Soon joined us ;) Lynette and I kept making lame jokes such as calling waiters "Maryland" because the service there was so bad, waving your hand in the air and calling them wouldn't make them come. I wanted to order my Chicken Maryland so I ended up shouting "Maryland" at the waiter lol wtf.

Me: Hey I think this waiter's name is Mary..
Lyn: Ya and this is her LAND!
Me/Lyn: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!! OMG SO LAME.

We wanted to take out the cake so Soon & Melvin took Sheng away, pretended that they wanted to go to 7/11. The girls prepared the cake on the table along with a litted candle. Soon pretended that he needed to go back and get something he has forgotten, and on the way, Melvin was sorta like crushing Sheng's head so that he can't see the cake. TAADAAAA! He looked REALLY shocked I tell you! :D I could sense that he was really happy because he kept thanking us hehe. Omg I tell you, the blueberry cheesecake Christine bought was so D-E-L-I-C-I-O-U-S! It's not sweet, the texture was very smooth and it melts on your tongue! Ahhh BLISS!!!! 8D Sheng felt guilty for having two slices but sorry la friend, it's your birthday, cakes are a must!

I'm glad things turned out quite well. The rest went home on their own, left with me and Christine alone since we're waiting for her sister. Since we were alone, we get to talk about more personal things, and of course, gossips!! :D I miss it and I had fun with Christine even by just talking/laughing with her <3

By then it was already 1am. Mom was a little unhappy for my late return. Sorry mom .__.

Sheng planned on his birthday outing for the next day. His initial plan was to go Mid Valley. Things were last minute but I assumed that everything's settled and that the plan was already fixed. I even called Ky if he could join us, he agreed and said he'd call me the next day when he's there. I slept off right after I came home since I was really tired, but definitely excited for the upcoming outing.


P/S: Oh yeah if you realised, I'm wearing gray contacts. HAHA CHERIE, FOETUS NO? ;D It was really hard to put on the contacts, it took me so long to grow some guts to insert them into my eyes. Practice makes perfect they say.

 

 

As for today...

I got up a little earlier to try finish up on Mr See's Add Math work. Dad looked quite pleased with me when he saw me doing work instead of playing around at 9am. He patted my head after asking if I wanted breakfast, but I said no, so he went off on his own. When tuition was about to end, Kok Ping suddenly rang me. I almost wanted to end the call but Mr See said it's fine to pick it up so I did.

KP: Jade. You free now?
Me: Why? I'm having tuition.
KP: Sorry. Just awhile ah. Sheng said he changed the venue from Mid Valley to Pyramid.. so how?
Me: ... What the hell? Why suddenly...
KP: I don't know. So how?
Me: Sigh. Can I call you back? I have tuition..

You probably can sense that, I was super potong stim-ed by the sudden change of plan. If you have read the previous post (oh you better do) I did mention that Ky's gonna be at Mid Valley. I felt uncomfortable so I called Sheng to confirm about his plan. Yes, the venue has changed. I couldn't believe it but just felt like as if the world is purposely putting less and less fate between Ky and I. I phoned Ky..

KY: Hi Mimi, I'm already on the way there. Where are you?
Me: I'm already not going Mid Valley.
KY: HAR?!?! WHY??????

I don't know if he was angry for me ffk-ing (I NEVER FFK PEOPLE IN MY LIFE) out of no where. It wasn't intentionally of course, and thankfully he was really understanding. Though, I felt really sad and angry at the same time. I know no one understands me because they're not in my shoe; I was just really desperate to meet him after so long.

I throw my tantrums almost at everyone, including my parents. Honestly, I felt really guilty for that but I just couldn't help it at all. After Mr. See's class, I immediately got prepared and brought my belongings. I wore a dress, thinking I'd want a more feminine image for Ky's eyes, but knowing that I'm not going to meet him already, I still wore it anyways. Parents were wondering why I was so angry, I just kept saying "Nothing" to them.

Dad: Cha boh kia something wrong already nowadays *shakes head*

Already pissed as I am, I just took it without trying to answer back because I got sick of it. I called Wei Yan, asked if she was already at Pyramid. I arrived at the entrance, I saw her standing near the center part of the place. She approached to me but she noticed the sadness in my face.

WY: HI JADE!... What's wrong??

And you know what? I suddenly break down in public. It was so freaking embarrassing, I told Wei Yan I needed to go somewhere to settle down. She brought  me to the benches near the fountain-like thingie, she still wondered why I was crying. She tried cheering me up, so I told her everything. It just hurts; imagine I had to control my feelings since home, and after seeing a friend, I had no choice but to let it go. It was just so damn upsetting. Do you know how hard it is to get Ky to come out of his home, getting the right transportation, and meeting me up? It's so hard, and when the chance is there, I'm always ready for it. Thing is, these chances don't come often. So I guess I'll have to wait again.. wait and wait and wait. I hope I can go Mid Valley this Monday to meet him, but who knows things may turn ugly once again.

I wiped off my tears, of course, didn't want to look ugly when the rest of the group comes. Wei Yan wanted to treat me ice-cream but I hadn't any appetite for it. We walked around, she showed me Lee Hom's CD album in Speedy, it made me smile a little. Je Yue met up with us, he thought I looked sleepy. Damn.

And so the rest of the group came much later than expected. Marvin, Kok Ping, Je Yue, Lester, Ken Wee and Sheng himself. Why is it that the girls are always the most punctual ones? We're always the ones waiting for guys, tsk tsk.

Thank goodness I've calmed down a lot more after they arrived. We went to Ole Ole Bali for lunch, laughed, joked, camwhored and stuff. It did cheer me up, am very grateful for such awesome friends.

Mr Gay Yue :)


Great pal with great annoyance


Wei Yan trying some spicy squid


Mine! Siap Megoreng; at first I thought it was SLAP megoreng on the menu, haha


I think this is lamb o_o Wei Yan's


Lester's nasi campur


Marvin's dunno shit this is


Sheng's salad


Sheng's soto ayam :) Very yummy


My Blue Hawaii beverage. It's really refreshing, tasty, and it's aqua blue!

We wanted to watch a movie but the showtimes sucked so forget it. Lester and I were searching for a Tidus FFX-2 figurine at Asian Avenue for Sheng's birthday gift. Sheng was always around us, so we told Wei Yan to drag him out, but it failed. The gang cooperated to make sure Sheng was no where near me and Lester since we wanted to buy the figurine. It's funny how they kept distracting him, HAHA. We even went to Memory Lane just to get it wrapped (I chose the lala-est/girliest wrapping paper ;P) and boy it took that woman to wrap SO FREAKING LONG! I WRAP ALSO FASTER LA -_- Oh before that, I suddenly heard someone calling my name and ran towards me. It was KIDO, HONG SAO WEN!! XD It was good to see him. Then I saw Adrian and Christy too. Sadly I couldn't spend time talking to them since I was rushing with Lester to get the gift ready. Heh.

We met up again with the gang at Machines. Lester presented the gift to Sheng :) Sheng was again, happy and surprised at the same time. He gave Lester a hug and wanted to give me a hug but I ran away and he chased me lol. We went to Starbucks for a drink before we went home. Laughed and camwhored with Wei Yan's DSLR. Gosh, the sequent photos of them really owns :) Will wait for her to transfer em to me the next day. Sheng also opened the gift when we were at Starbucks. Of course Sheng didn't expect the figurine from us, and what more that he likes Tidus? (Damn gay, seriously LOL) Glad he liked it anyways xD

Sheng and his gift from us (Lester, me and Ranessh)


Kok Ping. It's been awhile since we last hung out :)


The usual trios. Ever since there's been a slight distance between Marvin and the gang, we hardly ever get to see the trios together. Though honestly it's been great to have him around with us again today!


Thanks for cheering me up today!


Tsk tsk, Lester... HAHAHAHA!!


My gay friend


*Special photos dedicated to Wei Yan are as below*


Ma lovely lady lumps~


Nike tits, HAHAHA!


Man tits?

(LOLOLOLOLOL)


Too short for you :P


We turned into Sheng's pussy lick mode for the day!

Me, Wei Yan and Lester followed Sheng home. His parents were so sporting and straight forward. Nowonder Sheng's just like both his parents.

Wei Yan's self-made gift for Sheng. It's really colourful and I like the periodic table most. There's a periodic table because Sheng loves Chemistry. What the hell man :P

These post-its are for Mr Wesco, our Physics tutor. Hopefully he reads it when he's tutoring Sheng tomorrow morning!! XD

It's been a day. Like I said in the previous post. Fun and crappy at the same time. Haha. It's okay...  I'm happy that friends were there to make me my cheerful self again. Also, Ky will always be around, don't think he'd run away right? :) I'll let my chances to come naturally, and hopefully sooner than expected. All I need is patience.

Will update soon! (Once I receive the other photos from Wei Yan that is)

 

I had two friends whom I've met online.

Matthew Lee; an RO friend who coincidentally lived near me, USJ 4, and studies at the secondary school there.

From what I've heard, he's rather outspoken and annoying at school. Online, he was also the same, but I tolerated all of that. According to Eunice and Ee Ping, he's really good at badminton and that he represented school for some thing, can't remember.

One day I went to Eunice's open house celebration. He said he saw someone like me and even snapped a photo using his phone, acting as if he's the stalker. He never bothered to approach to say hi to me, because he was shy and wasn't too sure if it was really me. One day, he decided to lend his trust on me and informed about his sickness, Leukemia. He said he was fine, and that he feels just as great as he is originally. Though he was a little upset that he isn't allowed to get exposed under the sun a lot. Stubborn as he is, he still did whenever he goes to school or out with friends.

He was admitted to hospital because his sickness had worsen. He called me up to say he's okay, he even joked about how horny doctors and nurses are. I always thought of him as the disgusting hamsap dude but it's all fine, he's not that dangerous as it seems. So I accompanied him on the phone until he needed to take his medication and sorts.

He passed away in 23rd December 2005.

Ji Lynn who also knew him virtually, was 'supposed' to be the last person Matthew calls before his last breath. He always had a thing for Ji Lynn because she's such a wonderful person. Unfortunately, Ji Lynn failed to pick up the call. She felt extremely bad and guilty for not being able to say the last few words to him before his death. He's forever gone.

I'm deeply sorry, Matthew, that I never got to know you better when I thought I should've. And I only knew about your death three months later, as informed by Jocelyn. I didn't want to believe her at first, I even giggled and said "You're kidding right?".. but it's true, you're not here anymore.

RIP Matthew.

Raudhah; a friend from Singapore who was a fan of my anime website.

I wasn't that close to her but I knew her when she was a frequent visitor to my old anime wallpaper website. Shike and Kashi sensei who were also visitors to my site would tag on my tagboard often. They started chatting with Raudhah (also known as Eccentric as her screen name) so I joined in the fun. We kept teasing her and Shike together before this, because they kept using my chatbox as a place to bermesra and stuff... *cough* so anyways. Raudhah decided to get to know me better so she added me up on MSN and even our accounts in Minitokyo.net, an anime community I was once active in. I taught her a few things in Photoshop and she learned them very well. At first, when I didn't know her real name, I thought she was a Chinese because of her fair appearance. She mentioned that she's from Singapore, a Malay who doesn't know her own mother tongue! She was an interesting person, who liked loads of gothic stuff.

One day, Shike and I visited her Friendster profile. Her testimonial box was filled with R.I.P messages and "We Miss You"s. We were wondering, WHAT HAPPENED TO HER? I mean, I've lost contact with Raudhah for almost three years now. And now I know that she's gone? What's the reason to it? Why is this happening? I'm so curious to know!

I decided to leave a message on the testimonial box, because I'm sure someone's handling her Friendster account at the moment. Lucky me, her godsister, Rohaishah, added me up and told me everything. Apparently, Raudhah has faced Leukemia as well. Raudhah was already recovered from it but not recovered enough to get out of home. She was stubborn, because she longed for a social life. She got flu from her friend and then the Leukemia disease spreaded even more.

That caused her death, which lies on 22nd December 2006.


I'm sorry Matthew and Raudhah. I know I haven't been a very good friend or whatever, and that I knew about your deaths so much later.. I feel so bad and sorry for both of you. May both of you rest in peace & God bless.


There's more people who also had Leukemia; some survived, and some had gone. What a deadly disease...

 

 

 

Since Wei Yan has been my "post lady" these days by dropping her thumbdrive into my mail box, I finally got the photos from her :) Thanks again, Wei Yan (kesian you la, I'll stop calling you boobs on my blog... for the time being. HAHA) OMG I managed to see Ky and you now how much of a blessing is that to me!!! :) :) I was so happy, satisfied and contented! <3 Thank you Wei Yan for letting me tag along.

So, initially our plan is to take a bus from USJ 2 to Mid Valley but since dad was feeling nice today, he fetched me, Wei Yan and Vincent all the way there. We reached there around 12 or so, both of them wanted to have lunch at Sushi Zanmai in The Gardens, so I followed them there. The restaurant's lights really produce a lot of heat (it was so freaking hot in there). I had two plates of sushi from the sushi belt thingy, I wanted more but I didn't want to disappoint Ky by my eating habits :P

She has small eyes!


Like mother & daughter -_-


Vincent's "Happy Man" smile :D


Orgasmic unagi california roll LOL

Soon that boy walked into the restaurant. Vincent was funny.. his reaction was;

"OMG SO LENGCHAI!" *shocked expression with hands on his face*

WTF HAHAHAHA!! Wei Yan told Ky about it and he said;

"He's also very lengchai. So fit not like me"

Damn these sweet gay compliments! :P Wei Yan kept calling Ky ugly and funny names because she so called "tak puas" Ky for some reason LOL. Poor poor Momo.

Momo is getting prettier and prettier it seems! I feel so "man" around him now :/

We went to Art Friend after that. I chose more copic ciao markers and then we played with the mannequins, HAHA. It was fun? *hides*

We're too damn obscene D:

We split up and go on our separate ways. Doubt you guys want to listen to my date with Ky, it'd be so boring for you all XD

Momo and I had our late lunch at some Penang restaurant. Normally Momo's more into Chinese/Malaysian food :)

Another picture of me and my drink, lol :D It's barley lime this time ;) Momo didn't like it because it was a little sour but I like sour shits.


Penang assam laksa! Yum yum :D It was OK, expected better though.


Momo looks bored with his chicken nasi lemak but he said he wanted to have more since it's that good.

We walked around for a bit. Checked out XL-Shop, nothing nice there. I saw the domokun pillow again, sigh. RM38.50 for it, a bit too expensive huh? :( It's okay, I will get other Domokun merchandises next time! We met up with Wei Yan and Vincent again because it got a little boring (LOL there was no where to go and I didn't want to bring him shopping, it'll bore him even more!).. she continued picking on Ky while Ky also did the same. We bumped into many of our friends today too! Mabel, Su Ling, Kar Mern, Jocelyn, Min Hui, Debbie.. they're all there for the same reason - hunting for MPT5 dresses! After Ky left, Wei Yan and I also searched around for dresses but never found any, sigh? It's either too ugly, too expensive, or no size. We still have less than a month to grab those dresses so... it depends on our luck :/

Mabel looking so adorable and sweet in her outfit :D

It's already 5.30PM by then, we had to catch the bus before it's too late. Wei Yan got her ass groped when she went up the bus to ask the driver about the location they're going -_- Poor thing, because the bus was fully packed with disgusting sweaty men, YUCK! Sorry Wei Yan, it sucks to be the victim. Thank goodness the bus we went on wasn't packed with people and that we have seats! The journey back home was full of teasing Vincent and his ROUNDNESS when he was younger. He also had missing eyebrows, though he had grew them now. It must've been puberty that decided to put some hair on him, but still hairless anyway lol. (that's coz I'm so hairy that no one can beat me, omfg)

I had a great time. It felt amazing that I get to see Ky again! I thought I'd never see him again until SPM's over. But since he'll be staying over at the apartment near his college, we wouldn't be able to contact or see each other as often anymore. Anyways, all the best to him :)

Even my camera is doing the ''Sheng's thing'' HAHA


Playing with Wei Yan's kuaci.


The bus ride!


More Momomimi shots, haha :D Thanks to Wei Yan the photographer lol


Oh yeah, I bought 5 colours! I only have these so far and tested them on this retarded girl I drew :D


Sheng's coming over soon because he wants me to tutor him Moral *BIG SWEAT* I hope I don't screw up as this is one of my best subjects LOL!


P/S: I've done Lester's newest layout. It seems that people didn't like it!! :( LOL. It's too red I guess. Sorry Lester.